To help combat this, I was reminded today by a dear college small group girl that Jesus needs to clean this. I am going to write down some verses to help combat the lies that I am facing. I was reminded that what I do is not for my glory, but for God's. What I do daily, in all areas of life, are called to be pleasing to him. I am committing to as I feel this jealousy, to pray for the people involved and for God to be glorified in it. I'm asking my friends to pray for me. Do you have any more ideas?
Today in church, the pastor that spoke asked for us to think about where God has us right now. I think sometimes I place way too much emphasis on being a teacher and being single. I forgot that first and foremost, I am a child of the King and He has given me gifts to use for Him. Then the lie that plagues me, is - if I am not a great teacher, than what am I?
It all comes down to small words. I want to be "the" and I need to learn that "a" is also great. I need to remember that all good gifts come from up above. What God has given me goes beyond my teaching. I am single now for a reason. To glorify Him. I am a teacher now for a reason. To glorify Him. I am where I am for a reason. To glorify Him.
So am I?
Not sure if any of this makes sense to you, but I also know that by voicing my fears and struggles, God can use it to change me.
I want to be different. I want to be confident. I want to boast in Him.