For the past few weeks, I have known that a lymph node was swollen and the doctor that I saw wanted me to see a surgeon to have a biopsy. I went to the surgeon today and he decided that I don't need a biopsy right now. He wants me to watch it for the next two months and if it changes, to let him know.
I should feel happy that he doesn't think it's cancerous and that I shouldn't be alarmed...but to be honest, I feel like there is no closure. I still have a larger than normal lymph node and it's been that way for months. Why am I not grateful? It's been a bumpy ride the past few weeks and I feel like I haven't been able to give all of myself fully to my classroom...just waiting for time to pass.
Now that it's over, will I feel like I am back to my normal self? Time (once again) will tell.