Saturday, April 3, 2010

Spouting Off

I'm irritated. Mostly, I'm irritated with myself. And before I go any further, if you are a male and happen to read this, I apologize now for TMI.

I'm irritated with my body. I know I haven't honored it with my food and while my exercise hasn't been what I would have wanted, I tried to do what I could. I tried on some capris today and I'm frustrated with my body because everything seems so tight and it shouldn't be. I'm also probably a little bloated (thanks to being a woman) and probably a little over-emotional right now. I ended up buying only one pair of capris that are a size bigger than some of the jeans that I bought a few months ago.

So, what shall I do??? Well, remember that I have to take one day at a time. I know I need to eat to live and not live to eat. I know that I need to exercise and not be obsessive about it. I know that I need to eat more slowly and show some self-control, which I am not sure how to get again. And while my close friends may question me, I think I am going to start writing down my food again for a month or so and see how I do.

My ultimate goal is to be fit and happy with my body and right now I don't like what I see for the most part. Chalk it up to hormones or lack of eating right or lack of working out the way I like to...but something needs to change.

I always said this was a blog that showed my journey - every part of my life, the good, the bad, and the irritating. Thanks for going on it with me.


Anonymous said...

Spouting Off, also.

I understand! After 3 kids I don't think I'll ever be that size 0 again. 8 is okay. I just don't always feel comfortable in my own skin. I see stretch marks and some cottage cheese and I jiggle when I walk. I don't want to be a 0 again I just want to see pretty skin and feel comfortable in it. I want to be healthy and in shape. I want to be able to run around with my kids and not tire so easily. I want to live a long life. I hate to work out, but I'm trying to start. Good luck to us both.

Dina said...

thanks for your honesty