Sunday, March 1, 2009

Selfishness - Slice of Life

Reader, before you judge, know that I spent 2 hours yesterday getting gum out of her hair, feeding her a snack, played a game of checkers, and made rice krispie treats for her and her family.

Today, as I walked from my car to my house, I heard it..."Cathy...." Yep, it was the neighbor girl again outside patrolling the neighborhood and watching for my timely arrival. "Can I come over?" (Parents, don't know how you do it non-stop) "Give me a little time, sweetie...say 1 or 2." That should give me a little time.

I sauntered around my house enjoying the peace and quiet. I made lunch. I did my Bible study. I relaxed on the couch. I watched the clock tick closer to 1. A nap sounds really good and maybe she won't be coming over, I thought. There was only fifteen minutes left in the show that I was watching and then it was off to slumberland...when I saw the bike. I had only a split second to make a decision.

Reader, you're hoping I let her in...shared God's love with her today, but I didn't. I showed my true colors. I snapped the tv off, raced on my tiptoes through the hall, and up the stairs as I heard the quiet but persistent knocking on my door. I drifted off to sleep, but deep in my heart knew that I made the wrong decision.

Hopefully, I'll have another slice that will better my colors, but today, the slice of life seems awfully selfish.


Stacey from Two Writing Teachers said...

Sometimes we have to take care of ourselves Cathy. You needed that today.

snowflakes6 said...

I agree with Stacey. It's okay to be selfish sometimes.

Lee said...

Don't be too hard on yourself. It sounds like you'll have plenty of opportunity to make it up to her. Glad you had a good rest :)

GirlGriot said...

I agree with Stacey and Ashley -- selfcare is so important. You needed that nap. You'll make time for her on another day!

Sarah Amick said...

Shame on YOU! You don't have any idea how good a nap sounds to a mother of two children who no longer nap! I am jealous of the nap not the fact that you didn't let her in!!! :-)