I remember seeing a while ago a message on how important our words are. If you take a tube of toothpaste and squeeze it out, you can do it fairly quick. However, putting the toothpaste back into the tube is a little harder...in fact, I do believe, almost impossible. Just like our words - we can say them, but they are hard to take back.
Today was one of the hardest things I've had to do before. My students came back from inside recess, but several students had to stay in and finish up some late work. Two of the three remembered...but one forgot. This was not his first time forgettting...however, I lost my cool when he came back and the one word I said to him was a very strong GO. My heart broke when I saw the change in his face. I knew as soon as the word left, how awful it sounded and that I couldn't take it back. But what I could do was apologize. I pulled him aside and apologized. I explained that I was frustrated and that I had snapped, but that I shouldn't have raised my voice.
I feel like this year, I have done a better job of not snapping at students. I know we're all human and we do it, but that doesn't give me an excuse. It shows me that I've come a ways, but yet I have far to go. I want students to remember me for loving them and teaching them, not snapping and raising my voice.
Tomorrow is a new day and one where I can choose to love students and take a moment and remember that they are kids!